Several years ago I began using this time of year as a time to reflect on where I am in life and who I am as a Christ-follower.  It has helped me stay focused on moving forward in my calling as a father, husband, and minister.  But, after years of intentional reflection, goal setting, and hard work I have to admit that I’m still not the man I want to be.

 

I still wrestle with sin that I shouldn’t

I’m not as selfless as I want to be

I still let the ones I love down

I’m not as faithful to my calling as I should be

 

And I could go on and on.  I as I reflect, though, I’m also reminded of the hope that is found in Christ and His work in my life.  You see, I’m not the man I want to be, but He’s not done with me yet.

 

His word is still refining my heart

His Spirit is still drawing me closer

Tomorrow is another chance to be more like Him (not just because it starts a New Year)

His people still help sharpen me

His love is still changing me

 

So, I’m still not the man I want to be, but I’m getting closer.  God’s word gives me a wonderful promise that the old me is dead and a new me is being created.  Thankfully Christ not only sees my past and present, but also my potential and is working in me to fully reveal that potential by helping me to be more like Him.

 

So, I will continue to reflect, set goals, and work hard.  I’ll do it because of the love I have for my Savior and my family.  I’ll do it with hope knowing that it’s not just me who is working, but also Christ within me.  And, I’ll do it in peace knowing that God’s not done with me yet.

 

I’m still not the man I want to be, but thank God I’m not the man I used to be.  I’ll never fully reach some of my goals, but day by day and little by little my God is helping me get closer.